Παρασκευή, 18 Μαΐου 2018

same ol' sick

 The game is, still, the s(h)ame. Evolved methods of  tricking ourselves playing it though. Yet the same rotten foundation.

 We still care more about "What will the other people say about me/this/that" than actually ourselves, or finding who we are.

 I'm still too stupid young to notice the difference from more points of view. Yet, noticed that it's actually even worse than some years ago.

  More or less pretty much always we, human(wannabe)s, cared about "what others would say..." I remember some just didn't care, but most just wanted others to NOT say, a thing.

 Nowadays, most of us, want others to say. But not just something they want to say. No, no, nope!

 Want them to say what we want to hear them say. If not, well sorry, won't make it. Delete.

 Had this conversation today with a friend and (I) realized how much worse this is going with all the social media. The social media I will use to share these typed thoughts. 

pavlos - vlospa


Δευτέρα, 14 Μαΐου 2018


 Chff. Ffh.. Phuphh... Aah. And the change begins. Breath. The first distinct change. Afterwards perception.

 If I'm outside, about everything, especially about nature, how it functions, the satisfaction of its needs and its importance.

 If I'm inside, about everything, especially about human. I think inwards. Body, mind, spirit.

 The spirit pushes the mind to push the body to function. Functionality of the organs, movement of limbs, breathing.

 Healthy body, open mind, clear spirit. Balance! Balance? ...

 Still ain't sure if I should (try to) totally get rid of my ego and all its traits.

 Not that I have succesfully managed it for more than a few times which lasted for small moments only.

 I am unable to understand, in order to explain and write down something that cannot be taught by words. HERE i draw the line between mind and spirit.

Pavlos - vlospa

Πέμπτη, 26 Απριλίου 2018

In the begining there was...

 ...A breath. Breathe. Relax. Focus on your breathing. Open your eyes, then your brain and if you still feel like you should, your mouth. Control your breathing. Close your eyes and listen, let your thoughts be gone, listen. Listen but don't pay attention.

 Put your thoughts in order. Look for the right feeling. Concentrate. Open your eyes and see, without looking. Like a television when you constantly change channels without looking for a meaning.

 Get up. Go out! Take a thirsty deep breath, get lost in some forest or somewhere green. Talk to the plants you might take or replant, listen to the birds, dance in your mind to their song.

 Listen but don't think. Look. Look and imagine! What is everything, for you and all others, for earth, for god/ divine.

 Imagine what everything is and is not and what else it could be instead of what you perceive.

Pavlos - vlospa kasbe

Σάββατο, 17 Φεβρουαρίου 2018

no need no name

 It’s been a while. How much is a “while”, a “moment”? Who knows... All that time I was silent, had to deal the voices in my head. It’s ok to hear voices, the problem starts when you discuss with them. So yeah. Silence till they shut up.

 Was thinking about death, again and life of course, again. A friend died and today was a ceremony for him. Although distance between us, personally I think a last goodbye is the least one can and should do.

 We shared time and created moments which gave birth to feelings and their expressing. One should respect those moments and honor those feelings. If they were true, honestly genuine from the bottom of their heart.

 This I guess is what we might be doing here, now, us. Don’t know if we do it well though…
We wander this earth and on our journey meet others and share moments and feelings while wondering what it is we are doing here now, either we know we doing it or no.

Pavlos – vlospa kasbe

Κυριακή, 14 Ιανουαρίου 2018

We got a winner

 Good day to you too. Back from limbo. It's been a while, huh? Only to cry once I open my eyes again. With what I see, with I (force myself to) face. It's a competition. It's a fight. To win, to lose and to remember, to forget.

  Aaand we go on, fighting (ourselves). Wining and losing, remembering and forgeting, bringing back to life and burying. Born to lose, live to win. So one dies fighting? At what cost does he win? What does he even win?

 One tries to find out who one really is. So damn hard and yet a fog of ego is blocking one's vision. The clearer it gets the more mistaken one sees one's self in the past. Would the child one be proud of who one is now, of who one became? I'm unable to imagine but i fear that, no. So, if no, would it still not be proud if he knew what one knows (sure, not much but still more than when he was a kiddo) now?

 Surgery takes place. Remembering old parts, aspects of one's self and adopting them again. Rejecting current and/or older versions of one. Trying again if maybe now. Maybe one feels now more like one? He feels like oneself? Or is temporary, another mistake until he finds even more knowledge, experiences, opinions ... ?

 That's all. One more question. And of course no answers. Or you think this was all about answers?

Παύλος - vlospa kasbe

Τετάρτη, 31 Μαΐου 2017

we're being sprayed/ it is only natural

 Look up in the sky, in the area between stars and... erm, the ground i guess? That layer, yes. We name it sky. Introduce yourself to the sky. Then feel free to fly. Away. Million milles.

 They say airplanes "spray" us. And we become stupid and more stupid. Become? This means we were earlier not and we became just later, for a reason. Not our fault, of course! No?

 We are stupid. At birth we receive characteristics, DNA, milk and our rightfully inherited stupidity. But again, not our fault, no? Parental mistake most certainly.

 So, naturally we're never at fault. It's allways other people's fault.

 Isn't it only natural?

 But it is our fault that it is other people's fault. Got it? Hold it. Tight!

 I wonder, we were given facts, data and that was all. I mean WHO did RE-evaluate the theories, the history, the laws everything that was presented to us from birth onwards?

 Did you analyze, evaluate and compare your religion, society, laws of physics and/or other sciences and more to others? Well, most us did not. So, did you?

 Of course that is NOT our fault. It's because they spray us from airplanes with the stupidity gas.


Pavlos - vlospa kasbe

Τρίτη, 2 Μαΐου 2017

I am afraid i won't find all the dots i'd want

 I am afraid. Death. (small pause) And time. And me i guess. In the middle. Being toyed around by those... undescribably huge factors i cannot escape from. Am i not clear yet? Well the storm ain't over, please be patient. 

 I mean to say. I live until i die. Stupidly i used to, subconsciously, believe that this period is what one would call "his time". My time. But i don't own time. Time was way before me. And will be way after me. My lifetime is simply an insignificantly small part of it.

 So... Time exists, i live, i die, time contnues to exist. "Whatcha afraid of scaredy cat?" You'd probably say. I'm afraid of my lifetime. It seems short. Considering how many things there are in this world to experience in any way.

 I'm not a bookworm, there are times i enjoys reading even when i don't understand everything and/or fully. Slightly stoopid, yet day by day lesser and lesser i want to hope. :)
I'm not an adrenaline junkie. But i like stuff. Just imagine a neighbouring country how many things has to offer to your mind. And then imagine further, a continent.

 Just the other day i came across a video of Anthony Hopkins drawing. I mean i like his acting but didn't know he could and hell so good!! So i thought "Who else and what else?" How many people. And how many people i don't know.

 If the world "is a small place"... Then ya realize how small we are? Tiny dots noticed only through microscope. If someone is looking for those dots. So, are you looking for any other dots?

Παύλος - vlospa kasbe